Every morning from the 25th of June to the 11th of July 2013, while the birds were singing,
we received the wisdom of our Tantric Master Leela during our
Kaula Summer Retreat in the remote Pyrenees mountains.
Here we share some of her precious whispers with you.
Fall in love!…
I feel love for others, but the most difficult part is to feel it for myself and accept the way I am. How can I grow with this? What can I do?
“Fall in love more and more with women, men, children, trees, the sky… Just fall in love more and more. It is not so much about loving yourself. You should not look into that direction. It will not support you. Fall in love so deeply that you forget yourself completely. Then the only thing you will find when you look back at yourself is love. Bypass this step of trying to love yourself. It is not needed. Simply fall in love – deeply, more and more. Be drunk of it, get completely mad with it. And when you will be so lost in love and your eyes will look back at you, you will see love. It will be impossible to say where you will be. There will not even be the possibility of saying who you are. Do not struggle with this whole story of loving yourself. It will create complexity inside of you for nothing. You do not need this. Dissolve yourself in love. Fall in love more and more… Remember it is not so much about accepting who you are, about loving yourself. Forget about this spiritual rubbish. Get crazier, get madder, get drunk! Let love absorb you so totally that you are nowhere to be found!”
Leela, July 2013
Be a happy bird no matter the weather, sing!…
I have a question about love. Often I feel I am not able to express my love. How to show my love?
“Show it! What else can I tell you? Show it! There is no excuse for not showing it. The mind can provide many excuses. To me not a single one is valid. There is no excuse for not showing love, absolutely not a single one. In the mind you will find many; simply do not cooperate with them. The controller in the mind is the one providing many excuses for you to not show love. There is not a single good excuse not to show love. Get back into simplicity. From the point of view of the controller everything becomes so complex, get back into simplicity. Here in the morning you can listen to the birds. Every morning they are singing. Do you think they ask themselves if this morning they should sing or not? Should they stop singing because the weather is bad? Or should they stop singing because there are some crazy people moving around? Even in spite of your nonsense they are still singing! Even in spite of you not showing love they are still singing. Even in spite of you killing them sometimes, they are still singing. There is no valid excuse when it comes to love.
So whatever the situation, go back to the simple, and in simplicity love shines. It happens naturally. It is the most natural phenomenon of life. It absolutely asks for no effort at all. It is absolutely amazing to see that there is no effort to make; that it takes no energy at all to be loving. It takes much more energy to hold back. It takes much more energy to follow the controller. Relax, simply relax, and there you are. There is no effort in showing love; it flows, it is your nature. Why should there be an effort in being natural? These birds singing outside, do you think they ask themselves how to be a bird? Do you think they ponder the whole night how to be a bird, how to behave, how to fly? Do you really think they question themselves so badly, so madly? Do you think they come to me and ask?
Be as natural as a bird. Sing no matter what the weather is like, no matter who is there. Just keep on singing. And don’t worry if some cannot hear your song. Don’t worry if some don’t even like your song. The point is not there. The point is that you are singing. And the joy, this deep joy of simple singing, of being in your natural flow, this is the reward. This deep simple innocent joy – the deeper you go there, the more this joy transforms to bliss. So remember, there is no valid excuse for not showing love. Be a happy bird no matter the weather, sing!”
Leela, June 2013
This is the only thing you can do here: Play!
How to be in this world where you always have to be someone while actually you are nobody? I don’t understand how to move with this world. I also feel small. I can only be a child.
“You found it. You can only be a child here. Many people are pretending so much. If you look around in this world you only see people pretending that they are superior, that they are strong, and that they are powerful. Nobody is honest enough to say: I am small, I am so small, and I can only be a child. It is a sign of deep clarity to say this. This is a sign that you have tried everything and that you have failed and that you came to the right inner place. You can only be a child: A child of this big universe; a child that knows that there is nothing to achieve, nothing to prove and nothing to change. Everybody is trying to be something, to be someone. Be happy that you have realized that this is not the way to live. You can only be a child here and when you know this and live it, the true power opens up. I call this the power of connection. Then you are so connected to life, to love, to everything that is essential. If you look around in this world, you see that everybody is disconnected because they pretend to be something. They are divided in so many pieces. You can only be a child and this child is neither a man nor a woman. It has no polarity. This child is united, connected. It has only one flow. It is deeply rooted in life. It doesn’t matter to the child that it has the body of a man or a woman; it remains a child, it stays united. It knows how to play. This child is simply happy to have this beautiful body as a toy to play with; it doesn’t matter whether the body-toy is male or female. Please play! This is the only thing you can do here: Play!”
Leela, July 2013
Qualities are there to use you, not for you to use them…
I have a question. You talked about moving from our individual qualities. I have observed that I know what my qualities are and how to express them, but also that I can fall out of them and drop into insecurity, fear even. Some energy balances between these polarities. I am observing what it does with my consciousness and my healing qualities. I would like to hear from you about it and I would also like to have some support around it.
“It is very simple. Whenever you own your qualities you fall out of them. I understand that in language you say ‘My qualities’. But they are never yours. Whenever you own them, you fall out of them. And for sure you will feel insecure, imbalanced. Fear will arise. You will feel more and more confused and lost, and in difficulty to return to these qualities, how to again be in tune with them. When qualities come to you, whatever qualities these might be, you always have to remember to not own them and to be grateful that they are coming to you. They are gifts! But they are not there to be owned. And they are not even there for you to use them. They are there to use you. It is a totally different dynamic. It needs to be clear to you. Qualities are there to use you, not for you to use them. The moment you do this, you own them and are out of them.”
Leela, July 2013
Stop the game of attraction and rejection…
I have a longing to connect deeper with my partner and to be freer at the same time. I also see the same pattern coming up all the time, like last night when he came with his body, at first I could not receive. I was really rejecting him. It feels so painful to end up in that place all the time.Can you please guide me in this?
“You attract and you reject at the same time. You do everything for a man to be close to you and you are rejecting at the same time. In this way, you create hunger in the man. He wants more of you. Of course it has some limits, so once in a while you have to give to him, and you have to welcome him. Then the hunger is satisfied a little bit and the man is even more attached. This game was created by the society you live in: Men hunting, men going to war, men fighting, men possessing, and men raping women… Just stop it. Don’t even analyze it. Simply stop it. And I am not saying you have to say yes to everything. I am saying: Create a loving womb, a welcoming womb, a wise womb where your beloved is always welcome. This doesn’t mean he can do whatever he likes with you… Still, he is always welcomed. And from the wisdom, from the intelligence of the loving womb, you can always transform, you can always redirect energy, you can always be creative. When he comes to you, when he comes to your body, in whatever way he comes – whether you like it or not is not so important -, the point is that he is coming. You should acknowledge that, you should honor it. He is coming! He is making a step, and even if the step is not exactly perfect, it is not so important. He is making the step! You welcome the step and through the loving womb the step can be absorbed and can be uplifted.
You have no right to say no. This sounds a bit radical and sharp. It sounds difficult to understand too. You have no right to say no! In matters of love, you can only say Yes… It is not a stupid yes. It is not a yes of a victim, of a slave. It is a Yes of devotion. It is a Yes of transformation. Put it really this way: It is a Yes of transformation. It is immensely creative. It creates you and it even creates the man you are with.
Stop the game of attraction and rejection. You don’t have time for that anymore. It creates so much contradiction in your energy and the energy of the man you live with. Whenever you see the game coming, be clear and strong enough to not participate in it. Do not cooperate with this game.”
Leela, June 2013
Light up your lamp of love…
You were sharing about the dynamic of a woman towards a man.
Could you share more about this and also regarding this game of attraction and rejection?
And also for me how to support a woman in this?
“As a man, you also participate in that game. You have an investment in it, which is that you can maintain some distance, you can stay more on your own, and you can have a good excuse to go look somewhere else. This is the other part of the game: Revenge! The game is to create revenge and wars. This game makes that you will not go deep. And the most damaging of all, the most devastating of all: This game makes you distrust love! If you look at your planet, if you look at the situation there, the only thing that needs to be restored is trust in love. But if you all continue this game, you can’t expect it to come. You blame politics, you blame governments, and you blame money… But everything starts at home. It starts in your bedroom. It starts in the way you live: Attracting, rejecting, taking revenge.
As a man, when this dynamic is coming up, you should embrace the woman… You should see the Mother. It is in those moments that you should see the Mother – and I know it is very difficult to see her; it is nearly impossible in those moments. No Mother can reject you. No Mother can do this. It is not part of the Mother. The Mother has already transformed this. In those moments, relate to the Mother with the woman whom you are with and who is playing the game. You then relate to something bigger. When the woman is playing this game of attraction/ rejection, she makes herself very small. You then have to relate to something bigger. You have to reach to the woman in her depths. This game of attraction and rejection – see it as a challenge for you to reach her in her depths. If you identify with the game and play it by taking distance, by taking revenge, by moving to somebody else, you make yourself smaller too. In those moments you need to be bright, shining bright! If someone is lost in darkness and you have a lamp with you… what you do in that moment? You light up the lamp! When a woman is lost in darkness, you please light up your lamp of love, of awareness, of compassion! This light will reach her in her depths. And you can’t expect it will do, but I can tell you it will, which doesn’t mean it will be immediate, in the moment, but still it will do.”
Leela, June 2013
As long as you don’t love, nothing will ever make sense.
I have a question. Yesterday I was alone and it reminds me of something that I have often in my life. I don’t feel that anything I could do makes sense. I was thinking of what you told me the day before, that I should put my force into creativity. But I didn’t know what to do. It happens so often to me: I think of what I could do, but I see that everything makes no sense; it is boring and slowly I fall into depression…
“Nothing makes sense, absolutely nothing makes sense, as long as you don’t put your heart into it. As long as you don’t love, nothing will ever make sense. It will always be boring. And to love, you don’t need to be related to someone. I have already shared something about this. Do not let your love depend on somebody. Your love can fall in so many directions. Actually your love can fall on everything and everyone. When you are alone, stay connected to love and let it move into creativity. When you feel that everything is boring, when you feel that you’re falling down into depression, know very well that in those moments you are falling far away from love. It is like a slow suicide. In those moments shake yourself, really do something: Go out, run in the wood, jump, dance, whatsoever, but move! Your energy follows everything. If you start being bored, your energy will follow and will make your boredom bigger. Catch the moment and change the direction of your energy, change the direction of the mood. For this you need to have some trust in love and in its power…”
Leela, July 2013
There is nothing to achieve in this world…
I like to ask… At home I see that every time I like to start a little project at a certain moment all my time is gone in the project, in work and not so much in doing nothing. I don’t have free time anymore. I like to do all these things, but sometimes I like to skip it because it is also not what I really want. But then I start with a new idea. It has also something to do with creativity, but also with the feeling of filling up time. I also like to play music but when I have so much to do, I don’t have time for this anymore. Can you give some light on this?
“There is a lot of confusion inside you when it comes to creativity. And there is also fear. And you use creativity to go away from fear and that is not the way to move. This is not the way to be creative. Somehow I should not call it creativity, but to simplify the communication I will name it this way. You mention time also. There are three things you mention: Creativity, time and fear – even though you didn’t say this last word, you still mention it. You use creativity to not feel fear and time. By doing this you make yourself even more afraid and you accelerate time. Then you are constantly on the move, never at rest. What you call your creativity makes you run away from something. You are always running. Your little projects of this and that make you run. Your playing music also makes you run. Wherever you put your creativity, it makes you run away from time and fear. You are going to fall flat at some point, totally exhausted. I like to make you aware that you are already tired. Do not wait to be exhausted, because it might be too late. Creativity is not to be used to run away from something. Then it is not really creativity. It is occupation, entertainment. When you occupy yourself for sure you don’t have time for everything, for sure you feel a tension. You feel you need to do this and that while actually you wanted to do something else. Occupations are very stressful in your energy and body. You call these occupations creativity. Creativity has no roots in fear. Creativity has roots in love. When you let it overflow you are deeply relaxed and time is no more. The day might feel like an eternity. And because creativity has roots, it has then no connection with fear.
When you say you don’t have time to do certain things because you are engaged in some project, look carefully in those moments: You are occupying yourself, running away. You can do the same thing you are doing from real creativity. It means from love. Then the world of time and fear disappears. You enter in a flow of deep relaxation where you have time for everything. It is like time gets stretched. You can then complete everything. This is another part of your story: In all the occupations that you call creativity, you never complete anything. It is never finished. Let everything, all your actions, have roots in your heart. Then all your actions are creative and they move beyond time and definitely have no connection with fear anymore. Then you don’t run away. You simply relax more and more… Move away from the occupation of your mind to the creative dance of your heart.
I remember somebody in the tantric school. He was a little bit in the situation you describe, but it definitely was worse than you. To help me, I made it even worse. I felt it was the only solution for him. I made him do so many things in the day that it drove him totally nuts. He couldn’t finish anything. It was impossible. He even had to do it into the night. I made it in such a way for him that he couldn’t sleep anymore. You can imagine what happened to him after a few days. He was completely devastated, exhausted. We found him sleeping in the kitchen. Someone called me to see him, because it was definitely worth seeing. He looked like a baby: So sweet, so relaxed, so away from time and fear. New born. And he got it! He even stayed in the kitchen. He made it his life: relaxing, cooking…”
There is nothing to achieve in this world.
Let the creative dance of love take over…”
Leela, July 2013
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